So everything is wrong?

I don't know.

I am bad at all of the things.

I used to be good at math, but now it seems no matter how hard I try, I am awful at it. And now I am even bad at knitting. Something that used to calm me down now frustrates me to no end. I also hate spending time with my friends because I am just in the way. They have to accommodate me and that prevents them from doing things they want to do. And people just call me now because I have a car.

Specifics:

65/100 on last math test

The one proof I thought I got right, I got completely wrong.

provisional cast on in the round

I keep losing stitches for no reason?

Joe hangs out with Erik more than he hangs out with me now.

It is probably because I only read "avant-garde" books.

Fuck everyone and their taste in literature. I dislike fantasy and most sci fi. I dislike anything that involves destiny. I hate main characters who are only important because of some heroic thing their ancestor did.

I like stories about people. And I don't want them to be special. If they have some sort of special trait, I want them to be bad at it sometimes. I want them to be flawed. I want them to be actual people, not this fucking idealized thing that doesn't mean anything.

Also, I value concepts over characters. I also like characters that are concepts? Okay, let me elaborate a little bit. If the characters aren't realistic and human, and they are just concepts, then I don't want to feel any emotional attachment to them. I want them to illustrate a point and then never care about them after that.

I am perhaps insane and I hate literature. (Thank you, Greg and Kevin and Joe and Erik.)

I also like magic realism sometimes. So fucking shoot me.