spring break

It has been a day, and I already miss Erik an unreasonable amount. Granted, this is far better than winter break, but still.
I have been spoiled by routine.

I am so scared.

"It is okay to let go, Leah."



No. You will leave. You won't come back.




You are always leaving me. I don't need anyone but you, but you need other people. I am so clingy and needy. It is ridiculous. You would rather be with them than me.

being sick

is lame. Lame lame lame lame.

I have a test on Monday and a test on Tuesday and I had a test on Wednesday, but I dropped that class.



Oh, and an essay due on Friday.

guhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Love sucks.
Awesome.






I am sick of being frustrated. I want him to see that.

magic

on top of all this other bullshit is fucking horrendous.

I feel bad for my friends, and I feel guilty for feeling bad about myself. I mean, at least I have a boyfriend.
*sigh*

Like I told Matt the other night about being in a relationship.
I would not recommend it to anyone. I will never actively desire to be in a relationship ever again. It is nice when it is nice, but it feels like my heart is breaking every day and I don't know why.

It is the most awful feeling. I don't deserve him, and I continue to fuck up. He loves me, and that hurts, and I don't know why.

wanting to sleep

but not being able to because of the internet, of all things.


FUCK YOU INTERNETS.

YOU ARE THE REASON I AM KNITTING SO SLOWLY AND NOT READING AT ALL.

I do not enjoy it when Vida is closed.


That is the only reason I drove around all day! To have a latte at the end of it.

God damn you, Globe.